Bad day

Yesterday was a bad parenting day. I love my son, no doubt about it. But I am an individual and I need a bit of time on my own as well. It's been about a month now since his holidays started. Everyday I have been taking care of him from morning till bedtime. His nap time is when I am a bit free. But with no maid and no one else to help I have all the chores at home pending till he is asleep. So even that time is not for me.

Yesterday his nap time was cut short and he woke up soon after he fell asleep. He didn't want to go back to sleep. So, I had to entertain him for a longer period. Since he is a very active kid, I was exhausted by 6 in the eve. I took him to the veg shop where I had to pay for the damage done by him....phew....he keeps running around and managing him outside home is very difficult. Even after returning home, he was still bored. He kept on pestering me. I had vessels to be washed, dinner to be made and a very dirty house. After a while, I couldn't take it anymore and I started screaming at him. He got scared. He was bored and wanted me to play with him. But with so many pending jobs how am I to satisfy him? Finally his dad came at 8.30. But it was atleast  9.00 before he could devote time to his son.....I am just waiting for this period to get over.....

Has the li'l one grown up?

We are back home after a month to attend my brother's wedding. It was only my dear son, Akash and myself all along. He started missing his dad a few weeks before our holiday was about to come to an end. He was irritable always as opposed to the jolly little fellow who is beyond himself with joy when around people. So it must have been home sickness.

We arrived home only to find my sister-in law's family there. Mommy, daddy, aunt, uncle and a cute little cousin around must have made him happy. But still he is the same. Daddy is to be seen only in the morning and that too briefly. He has to fight with his cousin to get back his favourite toys. May be he has grown-up now. The old fellow who used to share his toys with his friends and who never used to miss dad when around friends is gone. I am worried about this behaivoral change in him. He went mad on seeing his old gang of friends again. Once they left, he has started off to be the gloomy fellow again. He is finding it difficult to adjust with his cousin who is just 18 months old.

His teacher was worried that he will start crying at school after such a long break but he has settled down at school. Its only home that he finds uncomfortable. I just wish that my son will be back to his old self again. May be this phase will pass off as he grows up......